I have been the victim I am a survivor that is thriving I have been an addict chained down Now I am clean, clear and free I have been my diagnosises, living just waiting for the next crisis to hit I am living free from fear now The storm comes towards me, reaching out I … Continue reading Thriving
It is a subtle foe At first it is your friend Laughing, having a good time Your worries start to slip away The mornings are a bit rough That is ok, you had fun It starts taking more to find that good time The morning comes and you need it to settle your nerves Soon … Continue reading Addiction and Hope
There is a house in my headToo many rooms for me to seeYet nowhere to hideNot for meThere are rooms filled with joyAnd others with fearThere is a room with us fishingOne with us fightingThere is a room of dreamsOne of nightmaresThere is a room of promisesOne of liesThis one full of potentialThat one full … Continue reading The House In My Head
My brain is telling me liesLies that go deep insideI am not good enoughThat I am not worthy of loveWho do I believeThose old voices planted in my headOr the new ones rooted in my heartHow do I undo years of self-hateAnd find new ways of self-loveThey shouted in my face I’m no goodNow others … Continue reading Inner Voice
I am starting overI reset my mindMy brain liedSaid it was my timeThings became too muchI began to drownHere I am feeling downMy mind went haywireIt’s time to adjustMy wiring is fuckedHere I sit againAll locked upWhere do I turnSpirit are you thereUniversal light I am lostGod where are youI want to feel the warmthI … Continue reading Reset
The world is a hazeNothing is clearMuddling through lifeI stumble and fallOn my kneesI stare at the groundI don’t think I can get upNot this timeThe cold settles around meI have nothing leftI am empty insideI give up hopeA hand upon my shoulderWarmth wants to spreadSo cold and numbI resist the soothing feelI close my … Continue reading Let it in
I am in Minnesota to attend my Aunt’s funeral with my mom. I really wanted to go to a meeting (12 Step) and like to do that when I am traveling. So I look at the meeting guide app to see what was around after I met up with a friend for dinner. I decided … Continue reading No one to share with
I’m here Do you see me I’m here My lonely soul looks for more I’m here Lost and longing for connection I’m here Searching for others I’m here Where is the space I belong I’m here I need to breathe I’m here My heart aches I’m here They say I am not alone I’m here … Continue reading I’m here
What Is There I can feel it Something is there I can feel a presence that brings a calm I have doubted anything real can bring peace So much pain how could it be How can something so strong been gone so long The pull to feel a being so deep I want to believe … Continue reading What Is There
New Life My mind wanders into the unknown Where do I go from hereIs this the start of a new lifeCan this be my new realityThe sky seems brighter even in the grayMy shoulders feel lighter with depression at bayBeing me has never felt betterI feel I can face life even in the dark as … Continue reading New Life
This Is Me 